I think in some ways your probably not alone in that boat, (or train as it were) there are probably quite a few lifetime supporters who feel that the winning of the FA Cup & the Charity Shield has been a kinda line in the sand, something which has justified (if that's the right word) all those years of dogged trudging around the country following your team- after that the whole "money circus" seems to stare you in the face with more clarity than ever before & you think to yourself, everything that attracted me to the game has changed, almost beyond recognition, is it really worth it, maybe save the season ticket money, get some sports streaming service at half the price of a season ticket & watch whatever u want at home.
I love being in the stadium, watching it live (its only live once) my trip to Selhurst is only 90 minutes each way & I too have had similar thoughts -