I know i am opening myself up for ridicule here, but in 2018 i caught Bacterial Meningitis and was in a coma for 12 days, my wife fought for me, and i woke up, i have lesions on the brain and i have to take a lot of medication, i cannot spell at all, thank good for spell checker, i never drank for 6 years, now i have the odd beer or glass of wine, but the medication i will take forever, and you have periods of rage and then almost completely relaxed, it goes with the damage to the brain, but when you support Palace every game is a trial.